the one place for people...wait no...one place for ME to rant

2006-05-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

im too lazy to even update this shitty blog

n thus i wont add links to it cuz im too lazy

i would say this blog is more or less dead..unless something really impt and special suddenly pops up

yea no more time...work work work...frankly im gettin sick of games....sooooo sick of games....designing my own game is such a pain....games games games day in day out....sicksicksick...fuck you

chuck norris ftw

2006-05-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

clara...u dumb shit...give me 100 reasons why i should not fuckin blast at u on my fuckin blog...its my blog aint it...n im ranting...got a fuckin problem with that?

RAYMOND!!!!!! THE DUMBEST PRICK OMG!!!! ARGH!!!!.........seriously...how the fuck can u be so idiotic man....like omg its the perfect oppurtunity u idiot!!!! omfg....i wished i had that sorta situation man...unlike the one im in now damn...u shld really consider doin smth abt that man...really....really really dont let that oppurtunity slip by...what have u got to lose anyways????

ok...all of u ppl who want me to link u stop fuckin whining...ill do it sometime soon..pffft

bastard game....or anger management game...any opinions?!

2006-05-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

ok...im gonna write stuff here that prolly no one else is gonna understand cept for ppl who play guild wars.

gonna buy:
mini kunavaang
15k Kurzick Ele
15K Kurzick War
15k Kurzick Mes
Obsidian Ranger
Any other Green i can afford after all this

ok so now normal fuckin talkin.

1 more char to go to finish factions yahoo!

and...mmm....so...mmmm..................designin weirdo board game...got concept rules n everything done...still a shitload of details to fuckin work out

so...this girl i like n have been bloggin abt...almost nvr talk to her anymore...well somebody gave the theory that she's afraid to talk to me cuz there's nth to talk abt....*coughs*bullshit well im kinda apprehensive abt talkin to her as well cuz i dont wanna seem like a fuckin stalker or smth

o well....shiwei if ur reading this lol...prolly no hope anymore so haha...dont bother tryin to drag her down to AP n try to stop my wrath u dumb shit

yes this blog really sucks n i really have nothin else to write n ppl r being lame on my tag board

clara...u suck...ur brother is gay(the short one)....and ur other brother(fat one) is a weirdo who gays with the shorter one and views gay blogs together whislt helpin each other wank...as for u...u puny fart...go fuck yourself =P

that is fuckin all

2006-05-13T16:13:00.000+08:00

ok so...hey cat, or any other guildee, if u ever come back here :
haha nice of u to visit this dumb shithole of a blog...just alot of random thoughts n fuckin bitchin goin on here..

lol kinda funny how cat wrote a whole essay on who she was lol

anyways...got so much fuckin work to do haha...fuckin clay thing...make a board game....argh fuckin sian..so my clay thing looks so fuckin pathtic...like some deformed gay ass tiny luxon pizza wahah......dont even look like that ontography i drew lmao

mmm the bloody board game...im like havin a totally different flash of "brilliance" and like totally makin smth that has nth at all to do with my collage...omfg...well...hope it turns out fuckin right...think ill spend some time tmr doin it

i need more char slots in factions...2 more classes i need to make...dammit

johnsten..ur damn lame...lame lame lame...ill giv u many free tags
u watch out

so...abt drawing this girl i like...lol havent even tried......playin gw all day all night...only 2 more chars 2 go to finish factions ^^

o yea...TC outing...quite nice...food was damn nice...salmon sahimi n salmon roe vinegar rice thing...fuckin rox

LAN was pathetic...wasnt even playin properly...talk to christian n xingwei abt my poly shit, christian's theatrework, xingwei's korean thing, kinda amazing how so many ppl took so many different routes after sji

so yea i admit...i got owned that day...i prolly will get fuckin owned every other time i go LAN for dota....fuckin lost interest in it 4 months ago

just some reminders for myself:
step up vulgarities by 33% (thx cat :p)
mmm...what am i supposed to remember

o fuck this this blog sucks go fuck urself u reader

2006-05-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

had another extremely deep HTI lesson with jeffery agn...im tellin u this guy with his greek words n god...all that stuff abt how everything is right until proven wrong but how do we know its really right cuz its ideas being put to us since birth so where does one draw the line between right and wrong etc etc etc...gonna make me insane...thats if the girl in my blog doesnt drive me insance first

so...this dude in my guild...he's an artist...thats really cool...i can consult to a real live artist if i have any queries...woohoo

reading the law of success...horribly horribly deep...but this guy's words make alot of sense...its really stuff that will prolly apply to my life...

mmm...yea...i think this blog will die out soon prolly in a couple of weeks cuz i really dont have much to blog about anymore...one of these days ill put up a RIP stone here...yea...just gettin a tad too busy to write stuff here...

so its 11pm...i got lots of work to do..haha...

notice there have been no vulagarities so far....mmm..

FUCK

ok there...now the post is complete ^^

2006-05-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

so...yea i decided to start on this lil side project of drawing this dream girl this weekend...mmhmm..i will make time for it..even if it means less guild wars...frankly i cant stop thinkin abt her...someday i will have to tell her...like it or not i must get it off my chest b4 it drives me insane

o hey im a guild officer now! wooties!!! abt time too ^^. now i can boot people!! yahoo!!! watch out peasant guild people...muahahaha

2006-05-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK

im so fuckin pissed today...seriously like OMFG!!!

i was abt to enter this VERY FINAL END GAME MISSION to kill shiro tagachi...after which i would get access to some special in game stuff...but fucking NOOO dumb fuck factions preorder key fuckin failed on me...like wtf is up with that fuckin gay shit....n i was in such a fuckin good pug group too...which is such a rarity nowadays....grrrr....i think ill fuckin hench kill shiro once the fuckin comic connection gets me my factions copy...holy fuckin hell

n fuck fuck...my drawing sucks big time...like omfg i cant draw a straight line for nuts....n the lit how say cannot use rulers...how gay...huh....need more fuckin practice...

n yea.....got this fuckin gay ass book to read..."laws of success" something like that...."woohoo"...yea i open first page n first thing i see..."ENTHUSIASM"....:/....so yea...hur.......gonna be awhile till i finish this project...buahahahaa....

ok...mmm i wanna draw a picture of this girl (the one i have been bloggin abt) one day....prolly work on it over a couple of weeks...a lil side project..mmmhmm...might bring me inspiration ^^

2006-05-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

factions is fuckin hard...its prolly one of the toughest games i ever played...it shld come with a stress toy u can punch n squeeze....pisses me off soooo bad...grrr

ok...so...i have been thinkin alot...n i think yea...i dont have the balls to even try to go after this girl...so im gonna try to forget her...which will b kinda hard...yea ok...mmm

well...i hope she's happy...i really do...from the bottom of my heart(i do have a heart =/)...like i mentioned b4...all that matters is that she is happy...i dont have to have anything to do with her happiness...she deserves a much better person...a nicer...more considerate...more thoughtful...better lookin person who doesnt curse as much as i do...yea just an overall better person...mmhmm

yea...seriously...goin after any girl would mean suicide for me...i wanna work hard on this diploma..n my life's prolly gopnna get really hectic in a week or 2....so...yea thats my side...n like even in the slightest chance that we get together...i dont wanna screw this girl's jc life...u know...she's a busy person...dont wanna be even the slightest form of distraction...dont want her to start failin subjects n all...yep..ok...wooties...=/

if this girl ever even finds the time...to come n read this...n ask me who this girl is...well ill prolly nvr tell her....yea so she'll prolly nvr know abt my feelings for her....one day she might figure out that i like her...idk...it might happen...we'll see what happens then...

for the record...i hate anet....fuck u anet...fuck u....

2006-04-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

i made shiwei say "fuck" at least 3 times yesterday...after he spent a whole week tryin not to say that...see how powerful i am?!?! muahaha.

anyways...this girl in my dreams...she is a goddess...she can make ME not say fuck...woah of all people...mike...not swearing! omg! n its not like she told me to stop sayin fuck...its just her presence...im weakened...she's my kryptonite...ugh. so...weiyu was like...huh i wanna meet this almighty girl who made mike stop sayin fuck.

anyways...its been quite awhile since i saw this girl...i miss her alot...surprisingly i dreamt abt her...TWICE...n my feelings for her have been revived once agn...i really wanna see her...i really wanna tell her my feelings...but i dunno how -.-. n yea...if i told her now...how fuckin weird it would be after months of not seeing or talkin to her...lmao...yea so...kinda weird that she's floatin around in my mind...but i really wanna be able to establish a relationship with her...u know try it out pray that it works out that would be if she's willin to try...dont wanna force anyone into anything...but that would be tryin to move a mountain....*sigh. but...well....whatever happens...i hope that she's happy with herself n her life n whatevers she's doin....to me thats most impt...that she's happy..n yea its not like i gotta be a part of it...but...i would really like to be ^^. yea most impt is her bein happy.

yea...i dunno wtf to do...o well

ok...something that pissed the hell out of me today...OMG FACTIONS IS GAY! argh its quite hard to play...my assasin died so many fuckin times...the mobs are horrible gay n the hench r retardrd!!! ARGH!!!...grrr.....so fuckin irritating!!!....well im lvl 20 so not too bad =P

2006-04-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

ok...just came back from coronation centre

erm...just came back from sji too, saw a couple of my old buddies...so im feelin kinda good now...

im gettin lazy...really dont feel like typing that much on my blog lol...as if many people will come n read anyways...lets keep this short n sweet.

i ddnt pump adam or tas today *gasp*. ok la im not so mean...n as if i really give a fuck abt any bullshit they do...maybe cept tas...i have faith in that kid. anyways...saw raymond, david, jonjon and ronron. erm...ok....saw the 2nd drill test thing...standard as crappy as always...keep it up n dont let it drop further ^^.

mmm...lets see....i could blog abt that girl in my dreams...na not today...ill blog abt another girl

her name's stephanie. she lived at bukit timah. she was my childhood sweetheart ^^ in kindergarden. some people prolly are like "woah...mike had a sweetheart?!?!?! *GASP!". i have a heart ok....=P...anyways...i rmb havin quite a load of fun with this cute girl...visit her house...exchange our drawings etc etc...currently dunno where she is...or what she looks like. hope she's doin well.

this isnt the girl i have been dreamin abt...so...mmm......well..shiwei said smth today...abt relationship growing like a tree etc etc etc...well yea thats kinda true...n thats gonna be a problem...lol...o well

yea ok...thats abt it for today

2006-04-28T10:00:00.000+08:00

ok so just a quickie post...ill do a better one later tonight..

im scriptwriting class currently...FUCKING BORING ZZZZOMG

yea so the teacher's talkin abt the TiTanic now haha ok...ill post abt my sji visit later =P

2006-04-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

alright....so...my body pains have more or less subsided...so has my fever...but now i have like the worst cough problem in the universe...its givin me a horrible sore throat n totally distorting my voice -.-

anyways...ill be goin back to sji tmr...which im quite looking forward to...hopefully the muslim stall will still be miraculously open at around 4pm...

mmm...really not much to write today...really tired...very long day at school...did another hairy sketch....well jeff said something like...i was able to express the mood or scene or something like that...just that my details need work...that has to mean my stuff is improving...i hope...well...it better be improving...like Golden says, "well we're not building a space shuttle here". yea ok so not building but designing one.

ok...tmr...boring "mugger style" day...sianz...

got lost in the HDB area once again lookin for ronald's house...haha

saw jeremy from 407/2005 today...heard about PI...sounds really painful lol...

ok so...played abit of factions today...usin the assasin's fuckin fun...tele-ing here n there..lmao...but currently the mobs are a lil bit fucked up...so....yea anet pls work on that -.-

really nothing much to write cuz im fuckin tired and ready to go snuggle my pillow(sounds sick)...unless i write abt the girl i have been dreaming abt...but ill save that for another day ^^

>>>the school fills up with mist as i walk in through the front gate of sji...an eerie funeral march plays in the background as my heavy footsteps make their way to the classroom blocks...suddenly all everyone hears is...," ADAM!!!! AIK SENG!!! KNOCK IT DOWN!!!" ^^
(ok that ddnt sound drama enough...im just lazy)
>>> like it or not i will pump one of u tmr...most prolly aikseng...

2006-04-26T07:43:00.000+08:00

ok so im startin to realise my ranting isnt exactly ranting, just alot of vulgarities -.-

ok as promised...today's post is about 1T15/Humphrey. And as promised to Johnsten today i'll also write about isolation. ok here goes.

firstly, isolation. After leaving CJC, i literally isolated myself for nearly 2 full months, well other than the occasional human contact when i went down to SJI for training. for 2 months, i sat on the same fuckin chair, in the same fuckin room, eatin the same fuckin food...waking up at 6am everyday and sleeping 4am...all i did was play guild wars. yea so many people say im crazy...i think im eccentric. anyways...i would say i did a good job of driving myself nuts...cuz lookin back, during these 2 months i changed completely as a person. it's like a "slipping into the dark side thing". yeah sound abit overdramatic. anyhows...i more or less "dao'ed" everyone under the sun and became oblivious to the feelings of everyone around me. my feelings for a particular special girl even died out for awhile *GASP*...(well its back so im happy ^^). i stared into the eyes of everyone i saw and my mom told me i looked horrifying. my dad said i looked like some undead thing =O. the only place where i probably actually sounded the least bit human would probably be in guild wars and chattin on MSN.

ok....sidetrack abit...fuck la i liked my quite long hair during this period...but my dad wanted me to go cut to attend some dumb fuck function thing..now it looks fuckin weird =(

ok so...the isolation thing really stunk...cuz i was quite a negative person to begin with...n leaving cjc made it worse. well the good thing that came out of all of this is that i managed to meet a really cool bunch of people in guild wars who i play with regularly even now.

ok...now the section on 1T15

now...im thinkin alot of ppl in 1T15 see me as arrogant...snobbish...vulgar(thats true)...etc etc etc... Well yea there were several people who i ddnt like at all...prolly one of the reasons i acted this way..anyways...u know how u tend to appreciate something more...once its gone? yea so...after leaving cjc...after feeling that period of loneliness and currently in a new class, i really miss 1T15. In many ways...as snobbish as i was...many of u tried to be welcoming to me...n i took that for granted...which makes me such a jerk. :/. ok...well i really miss u guys...especially the left-wingers...u know who u are ^^. anyways...sitting here in a new environment i really regret not trying to get to know you people more...i might have actually stayed in CJC if i took the effort to try and make friends with you people...well then there were those few i really ddnt like...but yea they can go fuck themselves...anyways back to the rest of u...point is...i miss u guys and i shdnt have taken you guys for granted...not to sound too soppy or anything but i hope its not too late to forge friendships with you people even as most of us now study in different schools...if got any "Humphrey" outing in the future please inform me k? ill do my best to make myself available...thats if you even still want me there... :*(

well...i hope at least 1 person from humphrey manages read this

one more thing abt humphrey...for those who dont know how the name humphrey even came about...i play a huge role in the name...extremely huge role in how the name came about so...yea haha quite a lame role too...im not gonna say it here so tbbtbbbtbtbtbbtt :P

>>>2 days till my grand return to SJINPCC
>>>the clouds have already begun to darken
>>>lightning flashes across the sky accompanied by ear piercing thunder

2006-04-25T13:59:00.000+08:00

Hey so...this is my 2nd post. n ill be ranting about HAIR...

ok so...first n foremost something not directly related to hair...but has a somewhat close relation to it...n that is my artwork! yea so i realised my artwork isnt really what it should be. after all this time i had the impression that sketches r supposed to be very rough drawings with lines that arent fixed...or something like that....n soooo my linework is very rough....or "hairy". ok so problem is...i should not be doin that...n its givin me a fuckin headache....like omfg why the fuck can't i draw a firm proper bold line?!?! whats wrong with me!!! argh!!! well i'm startin to practice losin that hairy line thing...but my drawings are still considerably hairy.....so yea really need to spend more time on my artwork and how i actually draw my lines...and thus...i prolly won't b puttin up my work on friendster or anything for quite awhile....SORRY SHARON!! :/

ok....now...more related to the hair thing....mmmm....im thinkin i wanna grow long hair...like fuckin messy shoulder length hair...maybe abit shorter than that...yea...thats just something i wanna try out ^^...but personally...i dont have a fuckin clue how fuckin long thats gonna actually take to grow. n i wanna dye it some color...not sure wat color though...im thinkin like ex-CI Ben Tay's colour...for those npcc ppl who have seen his reddish brown hair which is prolly gone by now...so...anyone reading this who knows how long it will take hair to grow till that length and or have any suggestions on what color i should dye it pls enlighten me once agn ty ty ^^

ok now....facial hair...so....yea im guessin alot of people aren't fans of facial hair...but i wanna look a wee bit aged...so yea...hopefully in the next few months i grow some sorta stubble thing that has that sorta shape but abit thicker n longer than that yea...so ill prolly look really fuckin weird with this beard thing n long reddish hair =P. as for moustache....well im not to keen on growin one thats too thick or have those funny weird italian curly shape things....that just looks fuckin gay =P.

ok so yea...tmr's post will be quite a long one thus ill cut today's one short... something special abt 1T15/humphrey ^^

>>> 3 days till my grand return to sji npcc
>>> the clouds have already begun to darken ^^

my first rant - body pains

2006-04-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

ok so frankly i dunno who will actually come here...but i need an outlet to rant rant rant like a fuckin swede. however im pretty sure at least 1-2 people will come here regularly...i hope

ok so.....OMFG my body aches!!! argh it aches so so much....for those of u who have gone to UTC or ATC (npcc bros) yea i think u know it as post camp syndrome....u know when how ur body goes into total shutdown n it hurts like FUCKIN BLUE HELL and all u can do is just drop dead onto bed n sleep for the next 3-4 days!!! yea i managed to create such pain for myself within like 20 minutes instead of a 4 day 3 night camp. omg omg...n how did my body get to ache like this? here's what happened.

so like class ended...n i went to fuckin west mall to check out if some fuckin game was released....n sadly it wasnt and when i walked out hey whoop didoo it started raining cats and dogs and all sorts of weird lil critters. so...being the smartass that i am...i decided to run through the rain back to my house!! o hey did i mention i just recovered from a bad fuckin case of fever? yea so...just recovered...ran like 400m through heavy rain...n here's the best part...instead of drying myself i decide to go take a really cold shower!!! WOW!!! Next thing i knew i was makin all sorts of noises as my body started to breakdown. normally i like the rain...u know like pumping in the rain, PT in the rain etc etc...but omg...this is like....yea fucked up.

yea so...im probably that retarded today cuz of some module thing...where im supposed to "not think". so like...woah "not think"??? how in the blue hell am i supposed to do that? yea...if anyone out there has an answer please enlighten me....

ok...thats abt it for today...so if u ever even come to read my blog i appreciate u takin ur time to actually come here and read this...thanks thanks ^^

>>>4 days till my grand return to sjinpcc =)